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Sometimes dreams and desires are not meant to happen for a reason. While we may not always see or understand the reason we have to learn to accept that fact.

As we grow and get older we find that desires and dreams change. We change. We don't live as cutting edge as we once did. Realizing that a dream or a desire may not be the best thing for you is a bit painful. You at that point know its time to allow it to move on and for you to set your sites on something more tangible.

Holding on doesn't do any good as it doesn't serve you any. Let go and open up. Something I am constantly telling myself at the moment. Letting go of those things that no longer serve me to open up for the things that do and will.

It doesn't matter what events take place in the future. That has nothing to do with how I receive it. Its up to me to make the best of the situation not let the situation control me. I continue to step.

Learning can be quite painful at times. The painful lessons are the ones that stick out the most in ones mind and that is where your perspective is gained. We view the world around us through our eyes of pain.

This gives us a very dim view of the world. We see nothing but more painful situations. I've decided on something for me to help me change that. I am going to be free and its already begun.

Love is a wonderful idea however I just really need to learn to be a friend. I have to let go of expectations and desires. I continue to ask the highers to help me release these things that no longer serve me and allow me to continue to grow into this higher being of me.

Letting go is painful but afterwords is freedom. A little pain now for a whole lot of freedom later is worth it for me. We all have to find our own way. We should be respectful of the way a person has chosen for themselves and allow them to do what they need for them without our interference.

Can't say I'm completely positive at the moment I really wish I was. But I can say that I can no longer fear the unknown and am learning to embrace it. Painful lessons can take a bit out of you however its up to you to refuel. I'm learning how to fill myself and not allow others to fill me.

Yes its a bit scary to think that I could be totally alone when my time comes but you know what I'm already there. I've been such a recluse that I shut myself out from everything. I can't be scared of dying hell I haven't even lived. I have been dead.

I don't know exactly where life is going to take me nor do I need to. I just need to know that I am capable of accepting that which lays before me. I intend to make the very best of it.

I can already start to feel the freedom replacing those chains. I give praise to the highers for this moment. :)