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Sometimes you wait to hear something that will help direct your decisions for the path you wish to take and sometimes the answer leaves you with even more confusion. Normally it wouldn't be so bad but considering this is something I have felt that I truly want I'm just dumbfounded.

Being split over something can be worse than just picking a direction and going. Its worse when you have several other things that you are wishing to accomplish. But everything gets put on hold because your torn about what to do.

In this direction I have chosen to take I find myself having to make a decision that is going to be very painful either way I choose. I'm beginning to see now I am not going to be able to have both the main desires I have.

Of course because I am so confused I'm not even sure if that is right. And to top it off I am not feeling well physically right now. My stomach and my head are fighting over which one gets to kill me :( both are winning :( not to mention my normal aches and pains.

Again I just look to the highers and ask them to please direct me to the path that will lead me to my higher self. I know sacrifices must be made. So what ever sacrifice needs to be made help me to make it gracefully gently and lovingly.

I will give myself a small pat on the back. I have not allowed the confusing to direct me off of the main course I am on and that is becoming the me I know me to be.

I know me and I know I can jump the gun before I know all the facts and this time I am not jumping the gun nor am I just sitting and waiting for someone else to take the wheel. I am diligently praying for and asking for the guidance that is needed to help me achieve a higher self. I ask them to help me to allow that to move on which no longer serves me and not let me throw away the things that do. Again gently gracefully lovingly. Thank you.