Entry Number 1

Often times we sit and ponder what is the meaning of life? We ask ourselves questions such as Why does these things always seem to happen  to me? or something like, When will my life get better? Often we create our own demise by worrying, living in fear. We base everything on our lives by what others tell us, teach us and even force us to do. We live in a world ruled by an idea of God who tells you from the get go your not good enough. Your a born sinner. You are separated from God because of this sin. No wonder we live our lives in such fear. We either agree with this so called thruth or they tell us we will burn in hell. But we have freewill! Just not so much as you can see it just sort of on paper so it looks good you know ;)

We are taught from a very young age that we need money to live. We are taught that you have to work hard and be loyal to the money giver. They decided what we should believe and not believe they created a world of control because they think they are entitled and for the most part they have gotten away with it. We do everything to win its just a big competition. He who dies with the most toys wins right? Why? Who says? The fucking idiot with his toys? We have over populated and raped our dear mother so much that the destruction on which the idiot system was designed is going to fruition.

We have divided ourselves so much to such degree's that we have forgotten our own humanity. We are supposed to be here sharing the world with each other and with the other occupants of the world. The American Indians understood this concept. They were very grateful for the land and praised the spirits for the opportunities given to them. They were very in tune with the earth. They understood her. Then we came and totally wiped that out. Called it paganism and devil worship. Forced our Church on them and destroyed them when they were disobedient to our law on their land.

Often finding yourself means losing yourself. Its in those moments that the definition of who you are come out and sometimes that aligns with who we want to be and sometimes it does not. When it does not is where problems exist. We have lost so much in our short existence. And why well believe it or not because of our choice. We have chosen to believe the leaders of our world, society or tribes. We accept without question and are told we are being ridiculous if we question them. They force their rules and regulations on us. They set up a system that leads us all to the slaughter house and we blindly follow in the name of their GOD.

So how do we prevent the slaughter? Can we? Do we want to? Are we willing to be different? All questions that need answers but only you know the answer for you. We have become so distraught that we have divided even ourselves. No longer do Body, Mind and Spirit work together. All want something different and it keeps us trapped in the fear systems created by our forefathers and maintained and corrupted by our current leaders.

The only way to change is to be different. Not follow the bullshit they have laid before you and called it pie. Making you spend your life chasing it. Training us very much like we train dogs. But before we can show others a better more loving way we have to align our own selves up first. This is a process and processes take time. In order to follow withing the process one must be open and honest. One must be willing to be and just not do. We have to learn to communicate with ourselves before we can communicate with the outside world. A very costly lesson to me at a very major expense. I lost my best friend learning that lesson.

Learning to communicate with ourselves means understanding what communication is. Its not just mere words that we speak to each other. Its emotions, thoughts, energy and intimacy. We haft to decide who do we want to be? A real honest decision not a I want to be a millionaire question but How do I wish to be remembered? When people see me what is their feelings of me? Not what I have. We have spent our lives worrying about what we have. But who are we? No I mean WHO ARE WE REALLY?

 We all have empathy. We all get concerned when a natural disaster happens and destroys homes and people. We all wish to be helpful to them in some way. All the while allowing our fear of not having keeping us from actually doing what we should be doing. So we do a minimal and feel good about ourselves. There is more being destroyed than just humans and buildings. The wildlife that also has been left for dead or homeless. The trees destroyed. The ecosystem severely damaged. Our spirit side is what is telling us we need our true humanity but our mind living in fear prevents us from doing so.

So how do we align Body, Mind and Spirit. and start to understand how to communicate effectively between the three? There is really no one single answer. We all have different experiences and do share in some similar ones. I can only offer suggestions that have helped me in my experiences. You can only choose to accept or not accept. You do have freewill. Live it!! Talk to God no not the idiot the bible would have you believe is God but the real God who shares our experiences with us. The real God who shows us how to be what we wish to be if we are willing to listen. Making a conscience effort to explore the possibility of God (the creator) or The Father if you prefer. Our own spiritual father. He wants us to live in love real love not the kind you read or watch but a true love for each. As we are all one. Spiritually connected on one level or another. Here only to experience what we desire. To truly share with each other. Removing ourselves from the hierarchical hell that has been forced upon us. To understand all life is connected. We can learn to communicate with it all again if we so choose. I know I do. And this is going to be a record of that journey. I hope you all stick with me. Its going to be one hell of a ride :)