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In growing and learning to release old habits and old ways of thinking we sometimes trip ourselves up. At times it can seem to be a whole lot of things to manage at one time.

Holding on to those old core beliefs only leads us to more turmoil. It keeps us from enjoying life and loving ourselves. Allowing those core beliefs to take hold can also keep us from wonderful opportunities for growth. Unlearning what you have learned is easier when you start learning to apply what you should have learned.

Still its no walk in the park. Well maybe it could be depending on the park lol. Sometimes its not easy to refrain from those old habits and core beliefs however I am finding out as I become closer to my higher self that everything happens for a reason and its generally up to us to look at the situation and learn what we are supposed to from it.

I’m learning to get my mind out of the box and truly think. I’ve learned the more I try to control things the more out of control I’ll be. Which causes those core beliefs to sneak in and take over. Holding me back from what the universe is wanting me to have. Learning to trust a process instead of my own idea of control. Allowing a change in myself that allows me to let go of the idea of control and to fully allow the process to change me.

As I am learning I am applying to the best of my ability. Sometimes the results are positive and sometimes not. But I can’t focus on the results as they are just small endings of a journey I was supposed to pay attention to.

Life is nothing more than the extent of our own experiences. If we want greatness then we must be great. If we want to dwell in our own self pity then we just give up and see nothing is worth it.

I dwelled in my own self pity for years and have experiences you get from self pity. I have since learned to actually heal and let things go that no longer serve me. As I transfer self pity to self love I feel love. I am ready to accept love. Now I am learning to give it to myself and appreciate it.

Acceptance is the key. I had to accept things about myself I didn’t care for and I had to accept things I did and still do. I had to accept the fact that if I wanted change then I had to look at reality and start healing those wounds that I allowed to hold me back for so long.

I pray and give thanks to the highers as they have continued to show me how wonderful life can be if I accept it. I thank them for never giving up on me even when I did.