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There are things we have in our past that we don't always care to look at. Those moments when we hurt others and were selfish, ungrateful and had no care. Looking back at moments like that can make one feel like a bad person however it doesn't mean you are.

I'm a good person who made some bad choices and because of those bad choices I am able to make better ones. However the process takes two things: first is the honestly to realize your selfish behavior and the second is to want to change it.

We cannot grow into our higher selves if we deny those parts of us that are less than honorable. I couldn't have made it this far if it wasn't for my willingness to be honest with me and to look at that dark side and go ok how do I improve it.

I can't erase those things all I can do is forgive myself for them and allow myself to learn from them so I don't repeat the behavior. When I didn't want to face my past or the undesirable things I have done. I was depressed, hurt and angry all the time. I wanted a better life than that so I chose to have it.

Taking that honest look at myself was a bit painful and I had to face some harsh realities about myself. But I also kept in mind that I can change it. I may not be able to control situations around me however I can change the way I accept them. I don't have to be the person I was yesterday.

The highers have been rejoicing with me that I am doing the things I need to for becoming that higher self. I follow the path I asked them to assist me in finding. I'm so grateful that they have. Its not always easy though and there are times I should be thinking of them instead of trying to wallow in my own pity.

Facing those negative things about myself has also helped with the feeling of peace that I have. The calmness that is taking over ever so diligently and necessarily. Letting it all go and Opening myself up. Its a great process.

Things are coming together gently and gracefully and I am so appreciative of that. Keeping my gratitude alive has shown me how to be contempt. Again its just keeping my focus on where I desire to be and not where I was. Looking back is important but its not meant to be something you dwell on. Instead let it be the reminder of why you are going the way you are.

Smile and Keep Positive