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Sometimes a situation happens to show you where you are. Recently I ran into a situation where I started to become anxious. I was starting to try and control things when it dawned on me. I immediately released it and allowed it to happen.

Six months ago I wouldn't have caught that moment. I'm proud of me for doing so this time and very happy the highers graced me with that moment. Our work is paying off ;)

The election is over and I'm for one am glad I wont have to hear anymore about it. It really doesn't matter who is elected as they are only a face for the public. The real decisions are made by others in the background where they do not want us to focus. If they actually wanted change they wouldn't keep the election as is where its who's the most popular and not the most qualified. :(

Holidays are approaching us quickly and I'm not really looking forward to them. I do appreciate the opportunity to spend time with loved ones however its all the societal and retail bullshit that it has became a major turn off for me. First we need to treat each other with love and respect year around and not just during the holidays.

I really wish we as a nation would just stand up to those who would keep us oppressed. Retail stores don't care if you go broke because of the pressure to buy gifts to show you “Care” They don't care if you can't afford it all they care about is themselves. Business is not in the market to help further humanity. Business is in the market to destroy who ever gets in the way of profit.

Several more states have just passed legal recreational marijuana. Seems that the Federal Government is going to have to do something with its policy on Marijuana with so many states legalizing it and why shouldn't they. Lets face it the taxes alone are worth the price of legalization. Time to take it off the schedule list and allow people to do what they desire to themselves.

Ohio passed a medical marijuana bill a while back however its not so much to allow people the right to a medicine as it was the state trying to control the people. You can only have it in oil form you cannot grow your own and you can still be fired for failing a drug test. WTF. Where in any other place can a person be fired for a prescription? Have we allowed the insurance companies to just completely fuck us while we smile? Does the Government have a right to dictate to the medical community the care they can give?

Ohio basically said that only those who can afford the oils can have access to this medicine the rest of us who cannot are discriminated against because we are poor. Now get back on the opiates like good little sheep and shut the fuck up. Thanks Ohio Government I am glad to know that profit means more to you than humanity.

Anyways enough of that bullshit lol. I sent off to my ex the paperwork to get our divorce. Actually a dissolution but same difference. I sent her a message on facebook and asked her for her mailing address so I could send her the paperwork. She replied and I mailed it yesterday.

This is a big step for me as far as continuing to become a free me. Releasing those things that no longer serve me. I wish Erica the very best. However its best if we just continue to move on.

Still releasing some hurts and pains and sometimes its not as relieving as one would hope. Sometimes it brings up other hurts and pains and its at that moment you have to remember why you are here to begin with. Its a moment that says step back and look at the bigger picture. When we choose to listen and do so we see that we are so much closer to our goal than we thought. A moment to help you see that you have grown.

My journey continues in the certainty of uncertainty. So much has happened the last six months and I have witnessed first hand real miracles. I am so grateful to have that opportunity. Seeing the miracles and appreciating them has opened my eyes to how truly blessed I really am. Thank you all for that gift. I pray you can enjoy it with me :)