I'm grateful for the
week I have been having. While not a perfect week its been a pleasant
one. I am enjoying more peace and allowing life to just happen.
Letting go does not mean loosing control it means releasing the
thought of control. After all we can only truly control ourselves.
It is a learned
process however and some just don't bother to try. I have started
this climb with only one intention Getting me at a better place with
me. I am accomplishing that. I've lost a lot of things trying to
control and it saddens me to think of those I have hurt trying to
demand it.
However the sadness
I have is in no way negative. Its part of the drive to keep me
focused. Knowing I have done things that I wish I had not and hurt
people I wish I had not, now is used to encourages me to continue
this drive to healing and now serves as another helper. It is
teaching me how to not hurt others.
It reminds me to
slow down and look at the reality of a situation and not my perceived
reality of it. It also helps keep me humble in my thoughts. Helping
me to not place myself better than others but only better than I used
to be.
I'm heading to the
camp today to shut it down for the season. We are supposed to have
our first real below freezing snap this weekend so I want to get
everything set for it.
Winter reminds us
that its time to clean the fields and enjoy what we have. I have been
doing this literally with my luggage. Cleaning out that which no
longer serves me, Removing that which is not mine, and allowing
gratitude to take their place.
In letting things go
that do not serve me and are not myne I am taking back control of me.
The only thing I can truly control. The process has taught me
humility and has helped lighten my heart.
I'm learning to
accept that which I have no control over and I am learning to accept
the decision's others make. I'm learning to turn my hurt into
gratefulness. Grateful that I had the opportunity to learn something.
I admit I'm not always grateful especially at the moment of
disappointment but I am learning who I am through them. As the
process continues I improve as long as I continue to allow it.
Just ever grateful
for the opportunities that present themselves to me in this life. I
give thanks to the highers who are helping me to see.
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