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Its been a very instersting week. Saturday I officially quit smoking. I have successfully passed my first week. I have surrendered a lot this week. Situations I used to think were life and death now are just whatever. I am happy and content with what I have and why I am.

I am taking it day by day and only worring about me and what I want for me right now. I have a different energy right now and I am enjoying it. I continue to thank the highers for your guidance and gifts.

I have me and that is all that matters. I have others as well and I am thankful for them. I also have refocused myself and am doing what is needing to be done for me. No longer can I give others control over what I should be doing for me anyways.

The only way to truly fly is to admit you don't have wings and get an airline ticket like everyone else does. You see i'm only doing this well because I decided a while back I have to be completely honest with what I see and find with me and about me. I am now accepting these things and embracing me for all of me.

I go forward with a hope not of others but only of myself and that hope is to never forget what I have to be so grateful for. Nothing else matters.

As I continue this journey and explore worlds that I have never known before I welcome the freshness of life that has been extended to me. Not the amount of time,even though that is possible as well, but the reviving perception of what its all about.

The last time I quit smoking cigarettes I stoped for 4 and a half years. This time I hope that I will not pick them up again. I'll stick to the good stuff ;) The only failure is failure to put forth an effort. Everything else is a lesson to be enjoyed.