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When we last heard from our hero LMAO Life was just going. It still kinda is but I have some things in progress which will hopefully help me in my goals. I have given up on coming up with things I am passionate about as I really don't know so We scaled it back to things I like. That is a simpler list to do lol.

At the moment I am on my own and well its not that bad. Yes I would love to have someone I can connect with however I am just happy to be alive and have opportunity. I have a bit to do this week for me.

Getting out is something my Therapist and I have set as a goal for me. To get involved in something to meet people. I plan on getting with voc rehab and see if they can help me. I also am looking into some volunteer stuff as that is a good way to meet others as well.

I'm anxious about it to some degree and hopeful on another. Letting go of expectations of others is hard as well. We all get in the trap where we know someone and so we start to expect certain things from them as we should be able to however they are not obligated to do so. Another hard lesson to learn :(

Its all good though. As long as I understand I am human I can keep my humanity. The best thing about the last 3 years is that I really have started to learn who I am. I have also started to learn who I desire to be. I am so thankful for all the lessons and pray I can continue to do so.

I owe it to me to just make me happy with me. I'm learning to do so more and more each day. Gratitude has led the way ;) I have started to learn to not focus so much on where you want to be and focus more on what is now. I still have those moments but they are easier to handle here lately.

I did hear from Social Security they of course denied me. I expected it though as they pretty much deny everyone the first go. It was funny though they agree that my mental limitations are there however they think my physical isn't as bad. They told me to look for a job with limited physical expectations. So you agree I am disabled both physically and mentally yet you deny me. Oh well the appeal has already been made.

Removing negative things from my life means replacing it with something positive or the empty areas will just fill up with negativity again. I have entered an unknown time in my life. I can either make the best of it or not. Its my choice. I thank the highers for giving me such a choice. I ask them to continue to walk with me as I metamorphosize into the life I deserve. I deserve great things and great things is what I will get. Looking forward to some dreams coming true ;)