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Its been a bit of a difficult week for me. I had a small issue that kept me down for a couple of days. I've spent the rest of the week seriously trying to determine what I need to do about a certain situation. Its one of the hardest choices I have to make and its either going to be the best decision I have made or the worst. I have been praying to my highers asking for their guidance and support. I can feel them with me.

I'm doing my best to stay focused on where I desire to be. I am keeping up my gratitude's the best I can and I am still replacing the negative with positive. I know what I desire in my life and where I want it to go however that may not be the path I end up on. As they guide me and I start to understand I clear my perspective even more and see more of what I desire that I never new existed.

Life is change. Its a constant movement. Life doesn't sit still. When it does its no longer life but death. I'm tired of being pushed by the current and I am now moving in a direction that is more suitable to my wants and desires. As my life changes so do my needs.

Its ok to have those bad moments if we allow ourselves to learn what it is we must learn from it. What I have learned from my last one has really been weighing heavy on me this week. Its my desire to do what is right for everyone and I'm not always sure of what that is. Hell is it even up to me to determine what is right for someone else? So in the end the choice I have to make has to be the right one for me regardless of how it affects others. Its time for me to fly.

The weak moments only show us where we need to exercise our strength and continue to build ourselves up. I still haven't figured out how to completely change some of the negative I mean I know what to do its just remembering to do it when your in that down state. I may struggle but I continue.