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I had a decent session with my therapist yesterday. I got some stuff out about a situation I have been dealing with and we have started working on some of my core thoughts and feelings.

I am still working on becoming more active in my own treatment. I still am keeping up my gratitude's but I do have to start keeping them written down. I normally just say them as I go through the day but I really need to get more interactive with it.

I'm going to start putting together the stuff for my book this week and get the foreword written and have the basic outline done for how I want it to go. I also said that I was going to become more active here and I am working on doing that as well.

I have made some very positive changes in my thinking lately and I have been keeping myself going. Not every moment is a good one but every moment does give us and opportunity.

My current opportunity is to learn how to love myself by not being so down on me. I have to be able to look at the value I do have and my gratitude's do that for me. Which is why I need to start writing them down so I have the physical to look at when I am not thinking the way I need to be.

I am moving from awareness to engagement. I am becoming active in my role to change my life. I desire to do things and I am going to start doing them. I can no longer keep holding myself back. I deserve to move forward and become him I choose to be.

I have to make some sacrifices and I am doing everything I can to make those. I already offered up a great one. But there are more that I have to give up. I'm still working on the smoking and keeping myself with more water than soda. I'm about to be alone for a little over a week so its really the best time for me to put the cigarettes away. No one will be around to have to deal with my crankiness lol.

I am taking my life in the direction I feel it needs to go for me. I can't do anything but that. I can only live for me. Which is the actual first step of loving me is accepting me and my choices.

I am grateful to the highers that continue to show me how to grow. I am grateful to those around me who continue to exert love. I am grateful to me for wanting to become a better me.

Look at situations as opportunity's and not problems. I'm in process of doing just that. Giving up is only an option when you stop breathing. So until that moment we just have to keep going ;)