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Its been a blah kind of week. Not good not bad just there. I am still working on things and doing the best I can with each moment I have. I am learning to move forward in the directions I need to go for myself.

I am making the best of what I can with what I have. I have still been trying to understand my disorders and correct things where I need to. Its a slow process but its steady and consistent.

I have one situation in my life that is in limbo and I am just praying for the best outcome. I know where my heart desires but sometimes its not up to us. Allowing someone or something else control over what we want can be very disruptive for those of us who are control freaks.

Learning to let go is painful. Sometimes you have to let go of that most dear to you and you just cant imagine life with out it. I'm in that state now and I guess maybe thats why I am so blah. Last week was my week of anger and this week I guess is the beginning of acceptance.

I know this is short but not much else to say for now. I just continue.