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Still hanging in there and doing good :) I have challenged myself with my morning list. I focus on trying to come up with three things that I haven't said I am grateful for that I am. It was kind of easy at first but now it seems to be getting harder to do :) Since I started waking up and thinking of those things I am grateful for I tend to spread that through out the day as I see or remember other things I should be grateful for. 

Same has been with the positive thing about me. I'm really having to dig deep to find those things that are positive in me. Because again as I go through my day I think of these things and am grateful for them.

I have been actually doing something very geeky lately and that has been cleaning up my /bin folder on my computer. As some of you may know I run Linux Operating Systems and I have built a library of functions and variables that I use quite a bit. Its a huge job actually and I procrastinated against doing it for so long. However it is very satisfying to see everything is working the way it should.

In sad news we lost a living legend Monday. Lemmy Kilmister died of an aggressive cancer. He was 70 years old and Rocked out to the very end. Gone but not forgotten. Peace to you bro and thank you for the wonderful years of music you blessed us with. Long live the Motorhead.

For me the journey still continues. I face myself and forgive myself. I am crawling more and more out of this tarpit trap and keeping myself focused. I do this for me and me only. I do this at my pace. I do this because not living cant be an option. I do this because the war is over. Fighting me was never a good idea for me.