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I had a decent weekend. No nothing extraordinary or even exciting happened it was just a normal weekend. However I managed to survive it with out falling into that negative pit I so often find myself in. 

I have managed to wake up and stay on my list. I say my gratitude's and my positive thing about me and I am learning to forgive myself each and every day a little bit more. 

As I learn more of how to forgive myself I find its easier to understand how to let go. I am focusing on doing that. Forgiving me so I can let go and cause no more pain to others and myself. 

I have been praying to the highers to help keep me on this path. I know it has to be my choice and in the end its up to me. However they have been encouraging and that's what I need :)

I am learning to control my expectations of others. I have realized that we all have what seem to us to be reasonable expectations of others yet to those others they are unreasonable. What I am learning is I can not expect anything from anyone. Expectation of someone is telling them you OWE ME. 

Having this information is helping me to understand that no one owes me anything. Nor do I owe anyone anything. You as I have the same right to be who we are and not feel like we are obligated to do that which we don't want to do.

I'm grateful the highers have given me this lesson. I thank you for sticking around. I'm building myself and my faith as the journey continues.