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When I woke up this morning and looked at the time it was 4:20 on the dot. So I got up and obeyed the laws ;) I have been doing very well with staying on top of my list. I have the reminder set for 5am because I'm always up by then anyways.  Most mornings I have already said my Gratitude's and something positive about myself before the reminder goes off. 

I do admit I'm still sad about things that I have yet to let go and find it hard to let things go that I need to. This morning I came to the conclusion that I have to stop trying to force things and allow them to pass as they will. 

My focus at the moment is really only changing my own reactions. I have lived in that tar pit trap for several decades and have even tried coming out of it a few times but never really broke free. This time I am aiming to break free. 

I am setting small goals for myself and for now am being very conscience about doing them. I know its going to get easier as time goes and I will be come a much more pleasant person to myself.

The Highers have been with me each step and I'm so grateful to them for that. As much as I FU the Universe and all its inhabitants I'm glad to know they still care :)

I'm getting more active in a positive way as well. I've been visiting the forums again and helping where I can. And I am doing a decent job of thinking about my writing and keeping the blog going. Its a necessity for me to communicate to myself about whats going on in my head. I just choose to share it. I know I'm not the only one who struggles with life and if I can help inspire just one person to choose to change their lives then its worth the price of sharing ;)

Well the journey continues I hope you continue it with me :) Be blessed by the Highers of your Understanding.