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I have been doing very well with keeping up with my list and turning my focus on to more positive things. I've been maintaining some activity to help keep me from focusing on the negative in my life. Its been helpful and inspiring to me.

I had a great day yesterday as I heard from two of the three most precious people in my life. Michele wrote me and I was so glad to hear from her. Then Laura my youngest daughter called me :) 

Christmas is this Friday and I will be glad when its over. Don't get me wrong I'm not a scrooge but just not into the spirit of it. Its been hard to celebrate family holidays when all you can do is focus on the family you no longer have.

Not to say I don't have a good family in my midst now and I am so thankful for them. Just they cannot fill the void I carry. The highers have been working with me on this and I'm doing my best not to be so hardheaded ;)

Waking up every morning and finding three things to be grateful for has helped me understand how blessed I am. While I will admit I don't always see that and that's when I usually take it for granted. I'm also finding that saying something positive about me has really helped me focus on the positive things I have and do.

Its been a crazy year. I have loved and lost and hopefully gained and opportunity to rebuild the best friendship I have ever had. I met an incredible Lady named Lisa and lost that relationship and have no idea if it could be salvaged. 

The only thing I really hope for in this next year is to continue to stay on the course I am currently on. To replace the negativity in me with positivity. Its a process and I'm committed to continuing it. I will have my downfalls but I have to remember who is in charge of my reactions. I am not my emotions. 

Not sure if I'll post before Christmas or not so in case I don't may you and your families have a wonderful holiday and a happy new year.