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The past few months have really taught me a lot. Its taught me that I don't fucking matter. No matter how hard I try I am just not what people want. Now I don't care to want me either. All life is fucked and I am tired of being in it. No matter how hard I have tried to get this far in the end it really doesn't matter. Lisa and I broke up a couple of weeks ago and she still wants to be friends but honestly I don't want a friend I want a lover and since I can never get what I want I plan on taking my toys burning them and leaving this fucking wasted life. I want the highers to destroy my soul as its not worth keeping anyways.

I know you don't care nor should you care. I'm just a waste of good fucking breathing air and I will do my best to not take up to much more of your precious air.