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This past weekend was just amazing. Lisa and I stayed at the camp Friday night and it was such a perfect evening. I am still in the clouds and loving every minute of it. I am just so grateful.

As my life takes this path and I continue on my journey I'm beginning to understand more of where my path is. I'm finally choosing to accept it. I came to the great revelation in my own life the other day when I realized that my biggest fear was not rejection like I had so claimed but something for me that is even scarier it was acceptance. I have a difficult time allowing myself to be accepted. I've already survived mass rejection. 

The reason for this is basic and simple. Because of my early rejection from my parents I felt that there had to be something wrong with me. I lived as there was something wrong with me. It made it easier to keep justifying my own stinking thinking. I kept focusing in on the fear and didn't allow myself to live. I suffocated so much of my living in fear. 

Choosing to replace fear with love is a difficult decision. It takes strength to reprogram yourself. It takes discipline, love, understanding, and patience. I have chosen to live my life and not be a slave to fear. I'm learning to let go and move forward allowing fate to be what fate will be. I'm only here for the ride ;)

Living in love means we must realize that we are not following the norm. As people of love we must share the blessing of love that has been so graciously given to us. We must not allow old beliefs to deter us from living the life we were meant to live. Anything that keeps us in fear should be removed from our lives.

Letting go can be difficult but it is so rewarding. When you finally learn to honor others instead of trying to control them. We must realize we all have freewill and each must make their own choices and walk their own path. We must allow each other to live in peace. We can only do this by surrendering to love. 

The highers have so much guidance to give and wish for us to listen. They want us to have a beautiful life. We must remember who we really are. We are all just wanting to do for our families and be who we wish to be. They wish to help us accomplish this. 

They do this by showing us how to live a life of love and not fear. How to open up and release the negative energies that hold us back. They do not force themselves upon us. Rather you call them highers or God or whatever you see them as, they have given you the gift of freewill. They gave you this gift because they chose not to be rulers of you. But allow you to choose for yourself. 

Mankind has been stripping away at our freewill for century's. Using a corrupt image of the highers to justify keeping us living in fear. They want to keep us in fear so they can continue the rule. Convincing us that we can own something and we can have power over others.

How much more separation are we going to allow them to put upon us. I see it very much as gladiators fighting in the ring while the controllers sit and laugh. Basking in the glory of their amusement. We blindly allow them to continue the slaughter.

Why would any living loving God want us to live in fear? Answer he, she or they do not. We chose this by allowing ourselves an excuse to not think for ourselves. Its easier just to take someones word for it and accept that as truth. Why not everyone else seems to believe it. However through out history everyone else has believed something that turned out to be wrong.

I am no longer going to be a sheep. I cannot follow the fearful way of this life. I must be love. Shepard's lead sheep to the pastors and watch out for predators as the sheep graze. I'm not a Shepard either. I simply cannot save you from yourself. No one can. I have a hard enough time just keeping myself in love with myself. 

We all do something self destructive when we live our lives based on the root thoughts of fear. Until we are willing to truly change we will only keep digging the hole that they will bury us in.

When choosing to live a life with out fear you will find that your energies are becoming a bit chaotic. Not negative but juiced up if you will. Its the process of letting go that has charged your energies no longer are you bound by the chains that have been burdened on you. 

I have freewill and I chose to live free. I'm choosing to remove the chains that hold me back from the life I should be living. No longer will I allow myself to be beaten and put down for the amusement of others. I stand in love and walk the path that has been laid before me. 

With love I thank the