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Had an interesting week in learning about me and who I am and what I do want in this world. I had a proposition that came from no where hit me and I really didn't know what to say or do. It wasn't bad or good it just really started to put me and where I am in perspective. It helped me realize that I do have wants and I do desire things. Maybe not what was propositioned but It did start the motor turning.

I spoke to my councilor about it and we have started coming up with some ideas for me to look into. I have a few options to start exploring and I just need to really sit down and truly decide what I feel is best for me and the wants and desires I have for myself.

The week itself was also a bit emotional as I am still grasping the reality of my condition and educating myself on the combatants. All the while still hanging out in fantasy land which this week wasn't a bad thing because it really did help me start to grasp what I need in reality.

I was talking to my highers last night and they approached me with an idea for me to begin doing. I have been keeping a Gratitude list with roughly around three things that I am grateful for. Not allowing anything to repeat in the same week. They have asked me to take this a step further and now come up with three things I am grateful for about myself.

I decided to accept and the very first thing I came up with is that I am grateful I have the ability and the intelligence to learn what I need and to unlearn that which I don't.

The process of my personal evolution continues. The journey to be who I want to become is going to help me accept becoming greater than I ever thought I could be. So I continue with faith.