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Had a bad moment yesterday but I got over it quick enough. Sometimes it happens. I just try to figure out how to handle things better in the future. I also have to remember to keep in front of my disease and not it in front of me.

I only truly fail if I don’t do anything. I have been working hard on changing those core beliefs that do not serve me and I have been working hard on letting things go. I still want what I want however I’m learning to live in peace with out it.

I continue to concentrate my efforts and energy into healing myself. I have the highers who are also giving me healing energy. I add some rose water to my bong water and absorbing its energy as well. I was sitting at the desk after a hit and thought about the Dr Emoto water experiment. If you don’t know what I am talking about you should read this: http://themindunleashed.com/2013/07/the-power-of-our-thoughts-on-water.html

I thought about the fact that I need to ensure that when putting water in my bong to send it healing energy. I also found out that burning bay leaves is beneficial here is the article I saw for that: http://natives-today.com/2017/01/03/burn-a-bay-leaf-in-your-house-the-reason-youll-be-amazed/

In working on healing me I have opened up to healing. I had a rough moment at Christmas time when my mom called me up 3 times. I didn’t answer nor did I call her back. I mean I haven’t talked to her since September. Now its the holiday and she wants what? But I let it go. I decided to just move on.

I’m coming together. I am doing the things I can and need to for me at the moment. I just have to remember that when I start down that negative road like I did for a bit yesterday. It is what it is and I can only take it one moment at time.

Its a new year and lots of changes are in progress. Going to be an interesting ride. I thank the highers for helping me get this far. Now we go farther.