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As I get older I really don't have a love for life anymore. After all its nothing more than one disappointment after another and I'm done being disappointed.

In my experience life has taught me that its not for me. Guess what I don't want it either. I hate life. It holds no value for me. I see nothing good in it.

I'm not overly depressed or anything no not at all infact today is just a blah day. I just really hate fucking life. It has never wanted me and I do not know why it has me other than it is enjoying the suffering I feel.

I loved someone once like I had never loved before. I am heartbroken because she really never understood. No matter how much I fucking wanted her to she just didn't, Thanx for getting it Michele, May you never be as misunderstood as I was with you and may no one ever break your heart as much as myne. Its good though as its a reminder that I truly never should have been given life and I truly don't belong here. And someone like you would never want others trash as myself.

People know of me but never bother to understand and maybe they just can't, all the more reason I truly do not belong. I am not the same as you. I have no more desire I have no more hope and the thing that has room for faith is my death.

I guess its ok though as I really don't understand the cruelity of this world either. I can't see how material things matter more than people but you live this way and I just can't.

I truly wish my soul would be uncreated and all memories of me erased. I see no value in the life I have led and see no value in life in general. I honestly believe we are a horrible mistake that needs immediate correction.