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Here lately I've taken on a bit more active role in things. The more I live under this new light the more active I become. I am now a moderator at yet another forum. Its ran by the same administrator of androidforums.com Its a cooking forum and I'm excited to help out and get involved. I enjoy cooking and hope to learn some kewl recipes ;)

I still get in a funk at times however its lasting less and less. I am finding that when even I start to get into that motion I can find something to be grateful for and I soon start coming out of it. Its a very conscience effort but worth it.

Still looking for a job and praying that something with some decent pay will come my way that doesn't take a physical toll on me. I know it is coming and I am already grateful that it is ;) I'm now ready to receive this job.

Recreating ones self is not always what we think. Somethings that I used to like in the past no longer have a thrill for me and things I never thought I would like are becoming enticing. 

As I continue to discover and create the me I wish to be I am being the me that is willing to be completely honest with me. Its important for growth. Yes I have made some bad mistakes in my life and done things I am not proud of. The worst was hurting my best friend Michele. However had I not done those things I wouldn't be wanting to change those things in me. I would have continued on the wrong path or even the right path but for the wrong reasons. 

I am impressing me. I am happy with me. I am happy to be me. Learning to embrace myself has cost me however its a cost I'll never forget so I have to keep embracing or the cost was for nothing. I didn't come here to live for nothing.

2016 has seen some of the most amazing talent we have had on this planet move on. In the short 2 weeks we have lost so many. Lemmy Kilmister, David Bowie, Alan Rickman, Natalie Cole, Wayne Rogers and anyone I forgot to mention. One thing I believe is that they have taught us all to live and enjoy our moment. I hope to honor my memory of them by doing just that. 

We all have our direction to go in life. However we have the freedom to change that direction when it no longer meets our needs. As I have been changing my directions I have noticed so have some of my needs been changing. Its an exciting time as I venture into my unknown.