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While the past couple of weeks have been hard on me I did not fall backwards instead I made another leap forward. Yes I allowed someone elses personality to affect my own disorder. I started instantly thinking negatively which told me I am taking things way to personally still.

I am so grateful for the highers who have been one of the main reasons I have been able to manage. The other reason is Melissa who challenged me to change that thinking pattern and remember everyone has their own issues and not all is about me.

I do seem to take it more personal if a woman has an issue with me than a man. I am assuming that has to do with the rejection my mother gave me. I have had the past 24 hours to myself which was very much needed for me to be able to regain my strength to continue this evolutionary journey.

The book is not closed and I continue to move forward even if I fall down. I just get up and go again. While I will not apologize for my seemingly down fall I do say that its all part of releasing the old and starting the new.

Besides the highers three other people have been very helpful even if they havent seen that yet. Of course they are Lisa, Melissa and Michele. I am just so grateful for their continued support of me and sticking with me against all the odds.

I just have to remember to appreciate what I do have and not worry about what I don’t and honestly that is a very very hard thing for me to do. However I do what I must to continue to become a better me.

Peace my dear friends and my you always see a way to grow :)