Wednesday, August 16, 2017

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I really feel like I have out stayed my welcome on this planet. The only thing that seems to matter to some is what I can do for them other than that I feel like I’m just useless trash that doesn’t deserve to be in the same world as the rest of you.

I’m sorry that I have been deemed not worthy of breathing your good air. I’m not sure what I did in my previous life but apparently it was very bad and I don’t deserve to have any life.

I wanted so much to be able to change my perspective however it seems that there are energies against this. I’m so grateful for the place I stay but I feel so unwelcomed by a certain party and I just don’t know If I can continue to live this way.

I’m sorry I grew up in the swamps of Georgia and that we had to use an outhouse and had not convenient running water to always clean ourselves. I’m sorry I grew up in a world you truly will never be able to understand and I pray that it never happens to anyone else.

I’m sorry my mother deemed me unfit for love and therefore all others have as well. Again all I can do is say I’m sorry for doing that which I do not know I have done.

Forgive me for interfering with your lives and being such a burden on this world. I honestly wasn’t ready for the expectations that have been placed upon me.  

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