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Last week was definitely an interesting week. I came back home on monday from having a great weekend at the camp on my own :) I got back into my normal routine and the day was good. Tuesday was the greatest day last week as I have finally gotten my divorce final :D)))) The rest of the week was decent. I worked on the blazer on Wednesday and epically failed at fixing it :( however even though I got frustrated it wasn’t a real bad day. The rest of the week picked up and the weekend was good.

I didn’t get back to the camp nor did I get the chance to catch up with Alaina and Bryson however my stomach was at fault there :/ I am feeling better but still have a little stomach issue.

I want to get down to the camp to give the trailer a much needed bath and hope to do so before this weekend even though its looking like that may be the only time I will have to make it down there.

I’m doing good and I’m so grateful for the blessings that have and are constantly being giving to me. No they may not be exactely what I hope for but they are a great comfort and are exactely what I need :)

My finger has almost healed I have only a little dead skin left and its improving daily :) again a wonderful blessing that was given to me that I am so grateful for. I had come to peace knowing that I may loose the tip and so grateful that it turned out so much better than I could have hoped for :)

I’ve been talking with my highers a bit here trying to figure out why I cannot let go of a few things I desire to remove such as the Cigareettes and Soda’s. I have tried letting them both go these past few weeks and its just not happening. The answer I have gotten so far is the time isn’t right. I’m not sure why but I am still waiting for the Government at this point and as anyone thats has been in this position can tell you that is stressfull enough.

The lesson I got from this is yes I may be ready but I also have to be paitent and allow things to again happen as they are supposed to. I’m not letting go because I am still trying to control something that is not myne to control.

So its a slow it down and take it easy message. To much change at once can leave you to drained to continue so take it slow steady and stay on track. Your disease wants it now so don’t feed it.

I continue to allow them to direct me as I know they know best. My higher self is glowing stronger than it ever has and my inner peace has become more at home. I have learned that true contentment isn’t being satisfied its just being grateful for what you do have. I strive for contentment in that aspect. To remain grateful. Understanding that life is a gift to be shared.

I got to watch a nice thunderstorm last night and enjoy a nice rain. Its the first we have had in a while. Lately it seems like the storms all get to our door then they fall apart. The yard is now looking much nicer as the grass seems to be healtier now.

I appreciate being able to have the sight to see the living God around me always active in helping me to continue to push forward and be the man I know I truly am.