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Note: this was written on Saturday June 10 2017 - Posted today

Down at the camp this morning and the weather was just so beautiful. Not to hot not to cold but just right for me :) The birds were singing and nature was revealing its self as she woke up to greet the day.

Last night I burned some sage on the somewhat fire I had and said a prayer to the full moon and my highers and enjoyed a wonderful peaceful relaxing feeling. The feeling has definitely carried on this morning.

I don’t have an internet connection out here at the moment so this will probably be delayed in being published but the feeling is with me and I wish to stick to it and write this out.

My finger is doing much much better. Its still sore and I can only type a few minutes at a time before I have to let it rest but it sure beats hunt and peck lol :)

I had a really good chat with my Dad last night. We talked for a bit and had a great conversation and its nice to see that we both are doing much better in our work :) I’m at least fortunate enough to have one loving caring parent who truly regrets his past but is learning to move beyond it and I’m proud that he is my Dad.

Sitting here this morning and smoking a few good bowls catching a nice buzz and just seeing the beauty and awe that life truly is. The blessings my highers have bestowed upon me my whole life just has me in such a layer of gratitude.

Its strange when you start letting things go and look back and see all the times that your highers were with you even when you were not. Each moment I see from my past now is with gratitude and joy. I personally have survived so much I on my own would not have but because of the awesome love that my highers have for me I did survive it and as bad as things were for me in my world back then I lucked up having them not be worse.

I am so grateful for this new perspective the highers have again graced me with. I pray everyone gets the opportunity to get to know their highers as they will show you such an awesome life if you allow it.

I’m in a much higher place than I can recall ever being in and I do pray for those of you who are struggling with the past issues that you will be able to release those things and live not only in gratitude but in awe of how awesome life truly is. Its not always and easy road and the highers know it took me long enough to learn accept and apply but each step forward I take the closer I become the higher me I choose to be.

The closer I become the higher me the more I wish to share it. I want all of the people to have happier more enjoyable lives. It does my heart good to see people doing so and to me that is the biggest reward I could ever ask for. To be a part of some ones self awakening and seeing the changes from the negative they have been burdened with over to a positive that allows their true selves to radiate.

Seeing those changes in myself is just such an awesome feeling so getting to share that it becomes special and awesome and that is what builds love. Love is something I thought I was incapable and undeserving of having. I lived in that insecure core belief I wasn’t good enough then here not so long ago the question popped in my head: Why The Fuck Not? Why are you not good enough simple you don’t feel like you are so change it and feel like you do and you will.

Yes some of that thinking was inspired by my Therapist and some inspired by the highers but no matter the inspiration it was my deciding to act that changed it all. To let go of those things that were not serving me never will serve me never have served me. To realize that I was living in what I created and I had to be honest to face that and change it. I am changing it every second of every day.

I’m fortunate to have two extremely great ladies in my life. Two different people whom in their own way have helped me keep a hold of this balance I have. One I work with on this and the other on that and its interesting and great feeling to be able to share with them me. My experiences my perspectives my wisdom and my love. And I am so honored to be able to share in theirs.

Again the highers blessed me and I’m so thankful for all these wonderful blessings and I pray that others are being as blessed and grateful for them.