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Spring is in the air and the weather here has been just gorgeous lately. I got some of those spring cleaning things done and got the grass cut the other day. I cleaned and smudged my room yesterday and have been letting that lovely fresh air in the house as long as possible.

However the cleaning isn’t just the physical stuff I have done its also the mental stuff. Letting go of that which no longer serves me. Letting go of the anger and allowing the wounds to heal. Its a process and its a bit slower than the cleaning around the house I have done. However the results are the same ;)

I’ve been challenging myself lately to make sure I am being dicerning and not judging. I have a lot of judgments that I have grow accustomed to having rather from experience or just the ways of our society.

We don’t seem to understand how much judgment of others keeps us in the grips of negativity. Stunting us from growing to our true potential. Many of us may not really understand the difference between discernment and judgement.

This is my understanding. Discernment is understanding that certain things are not good for you. Certian people, certain behaviors, certain situations. Most of us wont rob a bank for mainly two big reasons. The first is we dont’ want to get shot and die and the second is that we don’t want to get caught and go to jail. So we decided that this kind of behavior is not serving us. Discernment also means that you are not judging others for their actions or behaviors just that you realize there are things that are not welcomed in your world. However you still love those that do those things you disagree with and you respect their decissions. You allow them to live there life and you live yours. You spread no rumors or gossip to others about said person.

Judgment is not only disagreeing with the behavior or actions of someone its a condemning of them also. Condemning doesn’t mean you wish them hell and fire sometimes its just disagreeing and not really loving. We see others doing something we either have out grown or knew that was not for our lives. We spread rumors and gossip about that person or group. We tell people how they are wrong. We do not accept them or their behaviors, beliefs, actions and etc.

Its been very hard not to judge and to just discern. Society has taught us to judge. It’s raised us in judgement. We are always being told what we can and cannot do regardless of where we personally stand on an issue. We have been told what is acceptable for us and what is not. We’ve been shown how to spread the word about it. We’ve even been shown how to turn our parents in if they partake in any of these things.

In learning to separate the two I have become more understanding and more respectful of those things I personally have judged. I’m understanding how to love someone who doesn’t “Match” with me. I don’t mean that in any kind of romatic way but we all have those that we get along with and those we don’t. Those we do are a match for us.

My mother is a prime example of this with me. For years I had judged but tolerated to much of her negativity. I love my mom and I tried several different times to make it work between us but she always uses the same old excuss I’m to old and set in my ways. She just doesn’t want to change. That doesn’t work for me I want change I want to experience life in freedom.

I had to cut my mother out of my life. It was a hard a painful decission but I did what was best for me. I had no longer judged her just realized my own tolerance level and decided that I just can’t live on the edge like that with her. I wish her no ill will. I don’t spread rumors or gossip and I am allowing her to live her life as she chooses unfortunately that means she still doesn’t choose me. It hurts very much and I’m sorry thats what she want’s. My life though is not dictated by her actions.

To long I allowed that and I had to remove it. Since I transformend judgement into discernment I have had a peace that I have not felt in a very long time. I have a real joy in my soul. I am embracing it with excitement.

It all boiled down to me letting go of those judgements and just accepting the reality of the circumstances. Their choices and their lives only affect them and not me as long as I don’t allow it. My focus in on my life and my decissions and not that of others. As I keep my focus there the judgements are being let go and I am feeling the chains lighten with each step.

As I continue this journey to my higher self I know that its my journey. Yours will be different and even though we may be on the same path we can be miles apart from on another. I’m still learning what works for me and I am enjoying the process. I see the transformation and embrace it. I accept that my pains are only hurts that need to be healed and not an excuse to be negative.

May the highers lead you on your path as they have been leading me. Rather that higher is The Christian God or The Angles and Accended Masters. May your Higher direct you where you need to go and may you allow it :) The ride may not always be fun but it is so worth it.