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I’ve been a bit more reclusive lately. Just hanging in my room when not out doing things and just either watching a show, writing on a script or sleeping. I haven’t felt the need to be very social lately and I feel like its a good thing right now. I wish I knew how to explain it or even express it but its just where I’m needed to focus on my ultimate me.

I’ve done a lot of changing over the last year. I just got another year older in numbers I still feel like I did at the last age so its not different yet lol. I’m still in the process of creating myself and I need the time to allow my brain to sort things out. I get slow sometimes and have a hard time understanding certain things but when I do I usually understand them from that point forward.

So even though I am quiet on the outside. The inside is far different. I’m processing things and allowing myself to understand those things I need to. I’m busy not staying wrapped up in myself. I still try to do those little things that count like grab a buggy for someone so they don’t have to walk it to the closest carrosal. Or leave the change in the change thing. Not the bills just the change. It may be exactely what they need a small blessing :)

Any ways I know it may not seem like much but honestly I cannot really afford to leave the change but its seems since doing so I have been more blessed. I’m not saying that life is peachy keen and that all is perfect in my world but I am saying that it doesn’t matter if it is or it isn’t whats going on out there only affects a perspective but whats going on inside of me is changing affect.

So much of my life has been spent in service of one sort or another. It is through our deeds of service that we beging to understand our humanity. That we have passion, compassion and love. This is the strong foundation of life.

We are social creatures and those of us like me who can become very reclusive just little contacts here and there are all we need to satisfy that need. I’m happy by myself well I guess I can’t say I am by myself as this loud meow just reminded me :D yes I have adopted a Cat his name is Sparta(already Named) and he is a cool cat. He is good company :)

I got to talk to my daughters on my Birthday it was nice. I also talked to my Dad. I didn’t do anything special I just enjoyed it the way I choose to and that was that.

Its awesome to look back to where some of my relationships were and to where some of them are. I do enjoy those in my tribe. I’m forever greatful to the highers for them.

I pray you all peace, goodwill and good fortune. Share in the freedom that awakens you from within the soul. Allow the love into your heart and spread the joy of the feeling. Focus more on what you can do for others than what you can do for yourself. Instead of saying what do I need to do today try saying where/how can I be useful today.

No its not something I practice daily but I’ve become more conscience of it. To find God isn’t hard all you have to do is look. Be ready for not what you expect but what you don’t expect remember God works in mysterious ways. Get back in tune with yourself. Let go of the anger and the stress that holds us back.

Keep faith. No not religious, just the understanding that its all going to be ok.

A little fyi your not doing good deeds for those you know its those you don’t that you do a good deed for.