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It has been a busy day today. I had a Orthopedic appointment just for the doctor to go yep you have deterioration and arthritis in my spine an neck. Nothing that can really be done about it. I then had Melissa come which originally she was then she wasn’t then we made it work.

I learned something very valuable the past few days. It is so easy for me to fall back to those negative core beliefs. I have always got to be on guard against that. Its absolutely like what Melissa pointed out today about Alcoholism You can have a year of not drinking but one drink makes you start all over. She was so dead on with that one.

Even though I had earlier sorted things out with the situation that upset me to start with I found that I had already went back to those very core beliefs I have been working so hard on replacing with the better core values.

I also have to remember I am still in the healing process and every now and then a scab gets picked off or scrapped off and then the wound starts bleeding again. The recent events only showed me I still have more work to do with my ability to communicate with others in a way that they can understand where I am coming from. I still have to be on guard of those old core beliefs that I held on to for way to long.

I’m also very grateful to Karen who took time to allow me to explain my position and understood my heart in that matter. I thank the highers always for those they have put in my life as I know that I’m exactly where I need to be.

After getting a hold of someone in Social Security I found out I have about a 19 month wait and I’ve only been 13. So it could potentially be a minimum of 9 more months before I will have an answer.

So in the mean time I just have to continue to do my best to show my appreciation to everyone for all their support and efforts on my behalf. Will I be perfect at it probably not however I can’t learn if I don’t screw up occasionally.

I again just thank yall for allowing me to get those things out that I need so I can see how to progress to that better me I am being ;)

May the highers (Your God) bless you and may you always remember that everyone has issues allow them to learn their lessons as you have to learn yours. I am so thankful for all of you who are there supporting me :D

The journey continues...