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When going through serious mental and emotional thinking habits we find that somethings are easy while others are not. Old habits die hard. So in changing those habits we must feel the positive influences around us. I have had a few very good people recently enter into my life. I have chatted with them and have enjoyed the learning. Its really inspiring me to continue this transformation.

I am so grateful for all that the highers have been helping me to see. The positivity around me in me through me. My shattered heart slowly gathering its pieces back together to start mending. 

Learning to believe and not control. Its a lesson I am going through now. I just pray for Michele and hope that she overcomes that which is holding her back soon. May she be stronger and her radiance shine a thousand times brighter. 

I had a down day today. While on the surface this may seem to be a negative thing its really not. Sometimes when we have those depressed days they remind us of where we can move on to. The transformation I am going through is hard to always know what to do next or even how to do it. 

Letting go of control is not easy but its very worth it when you allow things to come into play. The other day we had some company come over and we kinda improvised and ended up having a really great time. No one controlled it. It just happened and it was beautiful.

It also opens me up to truly receive that which I have asked for. No longer am I closed off not allowing it to come in. Its all part of the process of my slow mending heart. But its real and its who I am. I am happy to be me and happy that I have the intelligence to learn and grow. 

We will all grow at our own rate and we will all journey our own path. When we respect each other we find peace among us. I do not wish others to follow my footsteps I just wish to inspire others to create their own.